Thinking of what i do not feel like thinking.

He said something, and i just keep thinking i also hope i can be better. what has been done has been done. I can never turn back time. And even if they are anything in my life they are nothing good.

EVEN IF SHE IS ALIVE, SHE WILL STILL NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO HOLD UP TO HER RESPONSIBILITY!!

All i can say is: They are selfish, so we are all selfish. So i want to work hard earn lots of money and get over this pathetic life.

I am back

Yo man.... I am back!! Haha... Got miss me. I bet so.

Anyway i miss you guys!! My Secondary School FRIENDS!! I hope we always stay the same. I don't give a damn whether you are a male or female. As long as you are a friend of mine i will miss you!! Love you!! Haha

Hmm... i am not angry with anyone, or anybody. It also not cause i can't let go of the past. If there isn't a past there won't be the present me. I dun like crowd, i can never blend in, and it a torture to know how useless i am to be left out. It been like that for years, i dun understand why i got to torture myself trying to blend in.

I am not useless. Seems so deluding.

Should i go back or should i not? If i were to go back i will be left out, but kind of miss there. Forget it i won't go back, it not like i won't see them anyhow. And i was never good with crowd or with people. I dun know watz to say, dun know how i should look, and worse still i dun know how to act, so that i won't be left out. I am sure a boring person, that is why i was not special, not wanted.

Maybe i should stop thinking that i am juz a nobody and a unwanted person. Should never let the past inflict the present person.

Am i useless? I feel so useless. Whatever..... maybe it juz a feeling. Who cares whether how i feel. And it juz not easy to talk about it.

Guess what i eat on friday? For dinner, i ate half a packet of fried rice, one andersen classic- 5 50g scoops, a muffin, a cookies in one hour. Actually not alot la. haha. Wow i so happy, thinking of it now, i am drooling. Let eat like that again. Ice cream, ice cream. i see ice cream i so happy. so excited. Actually thinking of food i forget everything.

I love you.... :)

Is it really that fun to play a joke on someone? A joke also means want to make fun of the person right? Den i shall play with you. I know how to play at sure things... A tooth for a tooth. Or maybe i won't, not so bad, or childish. Anyway i can't be bothered.

It 1st of Dec.... I LOVE DECEMBER. Birthday coming and Christmas. I love Christmas. Log cake, gift, food, food and more food. I love food and log cake. i miss you man and i am going to eat you up to show you how much i miss you. I will give you a big kiss and then eat you up, YUM YUM.

Please i broke with that idoitic simon long long ago. I won't give a damn about him. I dun feel a damn about him. Although i still miss the attention. But who cares? I can do without it. Being free is more important to me. I AM GOING TO STAY SINGLE!!! SINGLE!!

Now i juz want ice cream, buffet after buffet.

Only if i had money. Then i will travel the world to eat and eat haha